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2010-03-20T23:04:00.001+08:00

no longer in use

2010-02-27T22:40:00.000+08:00

it sucks to be me

2010-01-31T22:24:00.002+08:00

might be quitting the current job

hopefully and patiently waiting for the call from KK hopsital

work's been very stressful and im not enjoying it one bit

cant wait for this saturday's picnic

2010-01-27T23:00:00.003+08:00

work has been causing my face to break out like crazy

im doing ot till 8 almost everyday and sleeping hours just keeps getting shorter

im not getting enough rest and my brain feels like it's going to burst anytime

i need a time out on friday

need to go home early TO REST

getting naz his shoes this saturday

cant wait =)

and no shopping for me, need to save save save!

2010-01-24T13:58:00.002+08:00

i took a snapshot of this when i was at pr yesterday

like come on?

"but ur attitude like u does not love me"

1) improve the english please

2) don't scribble on property that does not belong to you

3) people dont really give a fuck"

anyways

meeting suriati at 6 later

cant wait =)

2010-01-21T19:00:00.002+08:00

dad said, when one day he and mom grow really old

he wants to be the first to go

he said he wouldnt be able to take it if mom went first

cos he said he believed that if mom went first, then probably in a few months time it would be his turn

it was scary when dad was talking to me about death

i nearly teared, but managed to stop myself frm crying

it has came across in my mind that someday both my parents would eventually be gone

but i dont want to think about that now, cos it scares the crap out of me

all the time i've been saying im independent, but no i do need my parents

i need my family

2010-01-15T18:06:00.002+08:00

in all honestly

i've got no freaking idea why i decided to open up this tiny space of mine again

i dont update it as often i should be

well time just doesnt permit it

work has been pretty hectic

alot of new things are coming in at one go

and it gets really frustrating when you're trying to get your work done

and people are talking way too loud

yes this kind of nonsense gets too me so quick it ticks me off

plus it gives me a stupid splitting headache

my head feels too full

im trying to learn new things as fast as i can

and im trying really hard not to make mistakes

basically im on the verge of just giving up

look for a new job i suppose?

maybe not so soon

and oh i havent been nice to someone for the past week

due to work i've been very snappy

i cant help it

i've always been like this

and another thing

for the fact that i asked nicely and someone replied to me rudely

it's sickening

if i new what to do, you wouldnt have that fucking job of yours

asshole

now im just waiting here in the office till it's 8pm

i want to go HOME LIKE RIGHT NOW

2010-01-12T18:49:00.002+08:00

me and a friend have a small project coming up in march

well i cant say that it's really mine

but it is interesting to help a friend to get her portfolio done

and what's even more kickass is that my closests friends would be her models

like how cool is that

now i finally get to see my friend get prettified(that is not a word of cos)

well they are already pretty but this would make them more vavoom!

6th March would be the first and i cant wait

2010-01-09T08:52:00.002+08:00

i was reading news on MSN the other day

and one article really just cracked me up and then left me with a WTF face

this happened in Malaysia

if i remembered correctly a 54 year granny, who has 8 grandchildren was caught with a 38 year old man in a hotel room

and when they were asked to open the door

they replied

"How to open the door, we're naked"

the reason to why it tickled my stupid funny bone

like come on, how to open the goddamn fucking door when you're naked?

that's the best answer they could come up with?

and the reason to why it left me with a WTF after reading the article is that

i just find it a tad bit disgusting

but oh well

people have their needs, and i shouldnt say much

maybe the granny is loaded, yeah that should be it

2010-01-08T17:51:00.003+08:00

BORED

i need to wait till 8 before i can knock off

how frustrating can it be?

i've got nothing to do and that actually irritates the crap out of me

everything is just wrong

im sick and tired

it's not my fault im like this

maybe only now you're seeing the real me

too bad really

i never used to be like this

so either take it or leave it>br>

plus the contest is up and running!

http://buttcracks.onsugar.com/ & http://reyenal.onsugar.com/

2010-01-06T18:11:00.002+08:00

contest is up!

im very excited and im just simply waiting on how the outcome might be

im not sure if that many people will join

eversince reopening this blog

im not really bothered to be updating it

naz will be joining the L4D2 competition

good luck to him and his team =)

2010-01-01T01:10:00.002+08:00

fundraiser is in process

http://buttcracks.onsugar.com

killing zombies was fun

spent new year's eve at home as usual

i hate crowds

sitting here at home, with the nice cold aircon is way better

btw, happy new year guys

2009-12-30T17:54:00.002+08:00

no i dont cheat, never have and never will

i've kept things to myself within the 1st and 2nd month

but that was back then

i've got my old men with me?

wow that was a tight slap to the face

my old men huh?

thanks

i've got it now

i'll be treating this blog like as if it's twitter

i'll either post long entries or short one-two liners

i wont be complaining in this blog

because if i remembered clearly, someone said i nagged and complained too much

but oh well, why open up a blog if i cant do whatever i please with it right?

lastly i've got nothing to hide

i've got nothing to be guilty of because i know and god knows i've done nothing wrong

that's why i keep saying and repeating

whatever i do or say, something is always a miss

fats can never seem to get anything right

but i think the one thing that i do well in is sleeping

because when i sleep, there's nobody there to disturb me or to say things about me

sleeping without dreams are even better

cos to me, dreams are an invasion of my privacy

what do you think?

dont think i will be going to wannab

i've already made plans with my friends to kill zombies

you can go if you want to

maybe there you will finally believe me when i say i dont know the guy

2009-12-30T12:27:00.003+08:00

pic credits to http://google.com.sg

this baby will be mine by the end of Feb

me and naz are on war to see who would get this camera first

im gonna win, you 'll see

i'll be sure of that

and how will i be spending the last day of 2009

killing zombies

gek poh here i come, and the durian puffs there are amazing

and psst, im having a contest with Reyenal in Jan

cant wait =)

2009-12-29T19:11:00.002+08:00

after close to 2 months

have decided to continue blogging back here again

i've had buttcracks for years now, it's definitely one of those little things that i cant really let go off

i mean buttcracks is like my baby (i am not a psycho)

so yes i'll try to blog often like i used to

and what's great is that i believe many have deleted me off their links

some privacy for me atleast

it's not good sharing everything with every single doofus here on earth

i'll be back to blogging soon

now im trying to figure out how to get the codes sorted and all that

2009-11-10T23:28:00.003+08:00

not updating anymore

2009-11-10T19:08:00.003+08:00

yes dua-dua muka cantik benar

thank you very much

i miss you

and i was told i had exactly 9 days to figure everything out

how nice

so much for repeating myself and reminding you to take leave

now im the one being blamed for not wanting you to go

thanks alot

2009-11-09T10:55:00.002+08:00

*all pictures have been kapok from the bf's blog*

yesterday was nice

i ate way too much so today i've got to make it up by skipping lunch and eating less at dinner

my terrapins are doing fine too

mom called me today morning and told me they tried to escape

idiots

plus i wasted 12 bucks getting the LED lamp for the two dols

they start pooping everytime i switch it on, damnit

and oh, i nearly fell down a flight of stairs while walking to citylink

thinking about how much i have left in my bank account is scaring me

how can i last till the end of the month with only 17bucks?

see my cibai face?

look at my thighs, damn huge lah, wth

and hopefully this sun's or the follwing sun's lepak session will be on

i miss you guys

2009-11-08T09:16:00.002+08:00

someone yesterday said

"im going to take a picture of this gamba"

i somehow found it funny and started laughing my ass off

and im glad he didnt leave

2009-11-07T11:14:00.004+08:00

huge ego - checked

throwing unruly trantrums - checked

too many over the top mood swings - checked

the feeling of moodiness every 24 hours - checked

fucking stressedd about something every single time - checked

oh and what else

i guess it's over - checked

and who's to blame?

the motherfucker typing this

in a very foul mood today

can i die now pls?

2009-11-06T18:36:00.002+08:00

bulan ni aku rasa macam aku makan gaji buta

sungguh best sekali

i've got twitter now

but i suddenly feel i've got no use for it

do you know how much im itching right to go on a holiday with the family?

it's already bad enough that im not able to go with syimah

im not even sure if it's good or bad news

got news from dad saying another supervisor wishes to extend my contract for another 2 years

the good will be, i'll have a job

the bad, im not sure if im willing to go through the politics

but we'll see

i have yet to shift to the new premises

still over here at ryder

but somehow it feels good to be alone in the office

the pressure isnt really there

cant wait to see how my new office looks like

im rambling too much

and guess what?

i lost my ezlink card yesterday

and i had about 15bucks inside

like WTF

2009-11-06T07:50:00.001+08:00

http://blog.onsugar.com/6009807

my entry is being featured on the creator of onsugar's blog!

"I Hate Titles breaks down the difference between St. Ive's Apricot Scrub and Beauty Formula's Facial Scrub."

one of her favourite entries =)

awesome or whaaaaaaatttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt

2009-11-05T21:06:00.003+08:00

not too sure if the pictures are clear enough

so basically if any of you ladies are interested in becoming a mystery shopper

do email them at mail@inuovi.com

with all your details

then all you have to do is wait for them to reply

i've been chosen and im pretty stoked about it

2009-11-05T15:24:00.002+08:00

i really cant wait for this december trip to cameron with the family

and im sorry for skipping out on the kl trip with you

i need a break from work

really really need a break from work

will have to check with my supervisor if i can go home at 630 today

cos there's really no point if i were to stay till 8

everybody's going home early

and this place here is freaking spooky at night

2009-11-04T16:11:00.002+08:00

people, not sorry not people

but a person, yes, oh wait sorry no, not one person

maybe a few, so yes back to using people

a few people are really beginning to get on my nerves

hopefully i'll be out of this crap soon

cant take it any longer

and pls learn some fucking simple english

what's that word naz used to tell me

"world lah"

and yes, all of these people are so full of it

joyce how do you spell malay people in chinese?

i think it sounds something like "malai-ren"

well obviously my spelling is incorrect

damnit, even an idiot who doesnt speak or understand a word of chinese knows that you're talking about them

at times like this, how i wished i was at pr with naz playing l4d

and is this sunday outing confirmed?

2009-11-03T17:45:00.001+08:00

im left with only a stick of winston's

and this will last me till 8pm

will be doing ot till 8 everyday for this week

it's all about the money

2009-11-02T08:22:00.002+08:00

now i really understood when dad said how strong politics were over in the department im working in

first off, i am not racists

one of my best friend is a chinese

and when i was in secondary school

especially in the first 2 years, i mingled with more of the chinese than of my own race

funny thing about us human beings

we always assume that people of other races diff from ours will never understand our language

(hopefully that previous line makes sense)

like how it is happening at work

i dont think im any inferior or should i be afraid of the majority which is not of my own race

i honestly do not mind at all working with anyone of any race

but i like how i started this entry

now i really do realize on how strong the politics are

i have always thought of myself as a strong person

i have always thought of myself as someone who could take any crap from anyone

but now the one thing i have realize about myself (which i dont even want to admit), is that i am impatient

naz would definitely say, true to that

i am not a quitter mind you

but somehow i get too impatient at times which will lead me to quitting

or in other words

"terlalu ikutkan hati"

i told dad how i couldnt take the politics over here

and hearing the things i hear, isnt really what you would call nice

there are times at work i do have this sudden urge to just hit someone in the face

just hit them really hard to just get the message straight

not all are that too over the top

only about a handful

and because of this so called stress or whatever pressure im feeling

i've been taking it out on naz

and it's definitely has not been fair

yesterday l4d's session with naz was awesome

i got to fucking shoot zombies in the heads

and believe me when i say i was imagining some of the zombies to be some people that i would really love to shoot if i was given the chance too

and bloody hell the uncle charged us $9.30 per person for playing only 3plus hours

like what the big fuck

2009-10-30T22:50:00.003+08:00

THIS IS WHAT WORK CAN DO TO YOU

ok kidding, just wanted to have alittle fun with contouring

so i came up with this

wanted to do a vampy look

but i skipped that and did this instead

pictures arent just showing what its suppose to show

it should be looking more deadlier

thanks to the crappy camera i have

maybe i should start saving for a new one

might have to skip the kl trip

i'd really want to go

but work's a pain the ass and i cant stand it anymore

2009-10-26T21:32:00.002+08:00

finally i've stopped being lazy

more crappy pictures at http://buttcracks.onsugar.com

i need a new camera, i need a new camera, i need a new camera, i need a new camera

i've always thought and believed that i could work well under pressure

boy was i ever so wrong

i screwed up big time, period

im not even bothered to be explaining what happened at work

i dont wish to be reminded

mcdonalds is having this super cool monopoly contest

pls god, let me win the $50,000 cash prize

im only left with one more sticker

just one, let me have that one sticker lah pls

and dee, i saw you on tv today!

2009-10-25T01:22:00.002+08:00

i was going to end the night ever so perfectly with naz

until i saw you

wipe that fucking little smirk you had on

dad said i shouldnt be rude

but i cant help it

i should have fucking slapped you in the face when i had the chance to do so

"oh i need the attention"

"oh guys are waiting and dying to get to know me"

what the hell were you thinking when you told the old lady all these?

well obviously you weren't

for one, you made yourself look so cheap

two, you made yourself sound like a stupid dumb goon

three, you make people think of yourself as a very weak person

four, after abt a week later you said you were in love with someone else, wow someone moved on pretty fast, you were obviously cheating and lying

stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid

oh hell yeah i could go on and on calling you stupid a hundred thousands of times

but let's not waste my time shall we?

ladies and to whoever reads this stupid blog of mine

i do understand, as a women, i do agree we do need the attention of our significant other

but we cant expect them to be there for us every min or every goddamn freaking second

agreed?

we as women have to learn how to be independent

dont you agree?

be it man or women, i believe as an individual

everyone has to learn to be independent

you cant be too dependent simply because you would at your own loosing end

you have to stand on your own two freaking feet, you definitely cant have people to carry you around all the time

am i not right?

but do you really think you will die from not getting the so called "attention" that you need?

what if the current person now isnt able to give you the attention that you desire?

what if he leaves you cos you are expecting too much "attention"

well girl, i think know what you would do

"oh i'll go find myself another attention giver, because people are dying to know me"

then you'd probably can go skip to the loo lah hey hey or however the hell that nursery ryhme goes

if you really need the attention my dear, pls do this

go to popular

i believe they sell huge drawing block or coloured paper

use a coloured marker pen

and write these words clearly and make it huge please

"I AM AN ATTENTION SEEKER, I AM IN NEED OF ATTENTION, PLS GIVE ME SOME OR I'LL DIE"

nice slogan huh?

or simply take a non waterproof black marker pen and write the message on your freaking forehead

one more thing, what if the person is able and willingly gives you all the attention that you need

(enjoy while you still can my dear, enjoy it while you still can)

but what if one day he/she doesnt do the same anymore due to whatever reasons he/she might have?

anyway how does that cops jingle goes?

watcha gonna do, watcha gonna do when they come for you

but oh no

in this case it would be

watcha gonna do, watcha gonna do, oh no boohoo

really, watcha gonna do babe, go cry me a river like how justin told britney to do

yes, this is for you

it's 234am right now

im already stoked about playing l4d later in the afternoon

2009-10-22T21:38:00.002+08:00

http://allatfivebucks.blogspot.com

updated

im so looking forward to KL

i've been dieting like crazy for the past four days

have been skipping lunch and surprisingly i dont feel hungry at all

both blogs are being left without any updates

yes i am lazy like that

proper update will be done when i feel like it

now get out

2009-10-20T11:37:00.002+08:00

BORED

effing bored

bored bored bored bored

bored bored bored

bored bored

bored

bored bored

bored bored bored

bored bored bored bored

need i continue?

yesterday while visiting grandma

mom told me she should have become a nurse

and i told mom, i've go no idea what i want in life

she said, you have no dreams

well i did

but you and dad didnt let me pursue it after my o's

k now back to the drawing board

how i wish i had another pack of ciggies to last me till 5pm

damnit

2009-10-19T22:22:00.002+08:00

mom and dad said that i could go to KL with syimah this december

FREAKING AWESOME OR WHAT!

syimah jadi k jangan tk jadi

im going to limit my spending to only 100bucks for this month

so no MAC brush sets for me unless...

k forget it, no brush sets

lesser makeup,lesser clothing, lesser everything

maybe i could loose a few pounds too

that'd be great

im now on a diet

SERIOUSLY i am

im getting very unhealthy

and i cant stand the fact that my extras are dripping over my jeans

but what the heck, im gonna loose weight and im going to KL!

plus plus plus

dad said i could go take my bike license

hell yeah!

will be going with bro

naz, dont worry alright, i promise i wont crash into anything if i do get my bike license

i honestly shouldnt drive a car

i cant afford to keep paying for the damages i make

dont even bother to ask what i've done to the car

malas nak story

now miley's party in the usa song is stuck in my head

bleargh, damn sickening

i've been racking my brain to remember this one particular song title

am now frantically trying to find it at youtube

miley, get out of my head pls

2009-10-16T12:14:00.002+08:00

picture credits to: http://www.temptalia.com/mac-magic-mirth-and-mischief-collection-lipeye-bags-for-holiday-2009

aren't they lovely?

my lovely ladies over at onsugar informed me that each brush set is selling at $100

you might think it's expensive but if you were to get the brushes individually, it will definitely cost you more than $100

(dad called me crazy the other day when i bought a MAC brush for $33)

im thinking of getting both sets

but oh my, the pain and suffering my bank account has to go through

im sure if naz were to be reading this, he would probably go bonkers and start nagging at me to save money again

can i pls get these 2 sets, pretty pretty pls? =)

there's too many good stuff happening

first the stage sale and now MAC's holiday collection

can all these makeup brands stop tempting me

go away pls shoo-shoo!

nononononono

dont go away, i love sales, simply adore them

but money always not enough

oh well, let's wait till the pay is in, then i'll decide

tonight i'll be off to johore to kill all fucking mat rempits, NOT

going to eat seafood lah, will be back on sunday

2009-10-15T22:12:00.002+08:00

i really hate it when girls, no wait

not girls but growned women claiming that there are many wanting and DYING to get to know them

really? dying?

did you know that you sound so shameless?

makes me wonder if your parents brought you up well

dying to get to know you, hahah

bloody pussyface

and puhhh-lease
STOP IT, with the almost golden monkey hair and crappy looking sweater

hahah, you could have atleast got someone better

what a disgrace

2009-10-15T12:31:00.004+08:00

AKU NAK KARAOKE

syimah and naz amacam?

anybody else wants to join?

oh yes

stage is having another sale

do you know how effing excited i am?

in my mind im already listing the items im gonna get!

im damn freaking sure im going splurge the hell out of my bank account with this sale

fyi

the sale is till 1 Nov 09

anybody thinking of trying out their cosmetics

this is your chance to do so!

FOX is also having a mid season sale
this too is till 1 Nov 09

will be updating another look on onsugar today

i've been too lazy, so do keep a lookout for the EOTD alright =)

2009-10-13T18:15:00.002+08:00

grandma got admitted to the hospital

was already otw to work when auntie called

had to take urgent leave

auntie said grandma was in critical condition

dad was already crying

being the stupid dumbass person that i was, i tried to console him

and i ended up crying with him too

well who wouldnt be shedding tears when you know your grandma's in ICU

but after getting to meet grandma

she seems to be alright

will have to wait till tonight to see what the results are

god, pls let grandma be safe

2009-10-12T21:13:00.002+08:00

bro should just go ahead and sing go on girl by neyo to her

i dont even think she's worth the wait

i was one hell of a busy person today

i didnt even eat lunch

and i wasnt even feeling hungry

amazing right?

my curves are getting more curvier by the minute

fine, straight up

what im trying to say is that my extra flabs are becoming more and more extraish and flabby

haha

well doesnt curves sounds a tad bit nicer then flabs?

i'll be off to johore this friday night

will be having a nice bbq with the family plus my dad's siblings families will be there too

definitely gonna have awhole load of fun

but naz'snot following =(

havent gotten his passport renewed yet

51 followers on onsugar till date

does anyone know how freaking happy i am?

2009-10-10T07:55:00.002+08:00

i dont really have anything interesting to blog about my life nowadays

im so hooked on to onsugar now that i've been neglecting my blogger

and i dont think anybody reads this piece of space here anymore

tomorow i'll be out rayaing with the most awesomest poeple in the whole wide world

i know i know

isnt it a little too late to still rayaing

well nobody was free the first 2 weeks

so many houses to cover tomorow

oh no! i cant remember where amin lives!

manisah dont worry, aku dah tau mana nak fetch kau ok?

what else

oh yeah, i've got a little tiny surprise for kecik

bought her a small set of brushes for her to play around with

plus an eyeshadow palette, lipstick and compact powder

ok look, my sister is only 10

she doesnt wear makeup everyday like i do

but she's been messing around with my makeup and i thought i get her some of her own

plus, whenever one of my cousin's sleepover, they'll lock my bedroom door

put on my clothes, use my makeup and take pictures

so thought i'd get them something to prevent them from using mine, hahah

yes im stingy, i know

but they can still meddle around with my makeup stuffs

i think i've got too much anyway

i need inspiration

i havent been coming with new looks for me to post on onsugar lately

2009-10-06T21:39:00.001+08:00

i can pretty much take care of myself

you may take me for a weakling

well im not

do i need another male companion?

suddenly i was made to feel so sluttish

thanks

now im in really NO MOOD

2009-10-05T21:40:00.002+08:00

i was out with naz yesterday

and i found these

want to know what they are?

EZLINK STICKERS!

i remembered syimah showing me hers the other day

and never did i imagine i would find it

they were selling at 50cents each

so i grabbed about 10

gave one to mom and kecik

kept one for myself

as for the rest im gonna go give it to my cousins

and this is mine

tell me it's hella cute?

im too lazy to post pictures of my haul

if any of you wants to go check it out, go head on down to http://buttcracks.onsugar.com

and one of my unties is a mak andam(she's my mom's cousin)

mom and dad told her how i am so into makeup

guess what?

she said she would teach me the basics for free!

and i think she even said that i could follow her if she went to do other people's makeup

oh hell yes!

but the problem is, i rarely see her and we're not that close

but oh well, will have to confirm with her again

maybe this would be a good start for me?

we shall see

2009-10-02T23:48:00.007+08:00

i splurged

yes i splurged the hell out of my fucking money

and im hella happy

i spent $174 for everything

but honestly it's money well spent

(well ok, not really but there was a sale, why not take advantage aye?)

and if i didnt crash my dad's car i would have another 200bucks extra to spend today

oh well

what a bummer

ps: i hate multistorey carparks, we dont click too well with each other

if anything bad were to happen to my brother, im so gonna kill your motherfucking asses

2009-09-29T22:50:00.002+08:00

in case you aren't able to read from the picture

anyone who is a fan of MUFE(makeupforever) or wishes to try any of their lip or eye product

check this offer out!

they're currently having a $10 offer for SELECTED lipsticks and eyeshadows

venue: 1 Raffles Link, B1-08

time: 11am - 8pm

date: 1st Oct - 3rd Oct 09

im having problems at work
i cant seem to get anything right

and i believe im catching up way too slow

really need to buck up

how i wished i could go back to working at expo and downtown east

eventhough i have to freaking stand for gazzilion of hours

atleast i had fun

kenapalah aku ni tk kaya?

2009-09-29T12:20:00.002+08:00

and forgive me for my stupid face, hahah i somehow look weird

on sunday i was out rayaing with naz and kecik

he came to my place and i went to his

it's been so long since i last drove and boy was i ever so kental

you should have seen how i parked

i had to go in and out a couple of times

how bloody stupid can i get?

*slaps forehead*

i cant wait for friday night

let's go watch a movie shall we?

2009-09-26T07:49:00.003+08:00

this is the first ever freaking raya that i have managed to get the CORRECT foundation which matches my skin without making myself look like some sickly dark person trying to look too freaking white

big yeah for me!

look at these 2

i called them

"eh faster i want to take picture of you two"

within a split second they quickly posed for me

hahah

so mentel

i didnt take that much, well simply because im not really bothered too

and i really need to get myself a new and better camera

yesterday after coming back home from work

mom and dad told me that one of my uncles just passed away
not really a close related one, but still

is it just me or that i seem to notice that there are alot of people passing away recently

even on onsugar a couple of the ladies whose relatives passed away before and during raya itself
see how life can be so unpredictable at times?

i might just be here doing my usual boring entries on blogger and maybe the next i might just not be here anymore

how scary is that?

and dad told me during the first day of raya, atuk said he wanted to take awhole bunch of family pictures using his handphone

reason being is because he's going for Haji and he wants to atleast have his family pictures with him just in case if he doesnt come back

god pls let my atuk be safe

gosh, look at my stomach

im 20 and my body looks like i've fucking given birth to 3

and here are the only 3 pictures of naz extremely small birthday celebration

well you cant really call it a celebration

i only got him a birthday cake
-_________-, i know i feel the same way too

somehow i now prefer blogging over at onsugar then on blogger

should i or should i not just delete my blogger account?

i miss naz

it feels like i havent seen him since forever

i might just drive over to pasir ris tonight
but we'll see

2009-09-23T12:30:00.001+08:00

im praying that there wont be any emails coming in later

im alone in the office and hell i've got no idea who to look for if i need help

naz is probably still sleeping and here i am bored to death

i dont think i have anymore work to do

AND

i totally forgot to get myself a pack of winstons before coming to work today

now im stuck in the office with 3 more hours to go with simply nothing to do

im probably going to take a tour from my office to the 4th floor toilet a couple of times just to waste time

once the pay is in

im going to order some brushes and samples from everyday minerals

going to get naz his absolutely too belated birthday present as well

and i have to wait for the 7th to get my fox downtown east pay, -________-

how was my raya?

it was pretty ok

didnt get to go to nenek's house

cos she simply DID NOT tell us she was going to KL for raya

not even an sms

well no comments on that

-__________-

i didnt really take that many pictures

im too lazy and too busy stuffing myself with food

being the most greedy person that i am

i ate too much

i kept going to the toilet from 6am to 9am in the morning on the 2nd day of raya

the cause of it? too much sambal

im putting on a huge amount of weight

and im feeling very unhealthy

but i find it too hard to loose the excess baggage unlike last time

can i go for a liposuction?

oh why oh why didnt i freaking buy my pack of winstons

now im feeling dreadful

im still searching for the minibus guys, will try to search for it asap

cos honestly, im not up for taking public transport

2009-09-19T16:40:00.002+08:00

i thought of doing this entry tonight

but i figured i would be to lazy to do so

so since im free right now

i would like to wish everyone and anyone who knows me and to those who dont even have a freaking idea who i am

a very happy and joyous Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri

saya fatin nur tiara ingin menyusun sepuluh jari untuk meminta maaf jika ada tersilap kata, terkasar bahasa and juga ter-ter yang lain lah

and do forgive me for all the crappy or nonsensical things i have done or said that might have tersinggung perasaan sesiapa

also, thank god i didnt burn anybody's clothes this year while playing bunga api

if not i'd have to send raya msgs again asking for forgiveness for burning their clothes, hahah ;)

so have a great day tomorow!

kecik tried to take a peek at how much i was giving her, big huge kepo lah this girl

2009-09-17T12:42:00.002+08:00

the chair at work squeaks like crazy

the toilet at level 2 stinks like crazy

im trying to pull a report but the damn browser says there's no data

how can there be no freaking data?

tomorow naz's birthday

and the only thing i can get him is a birthday cake

i know, patheticly sad ain't it?

but not too worry

once the next pay is in

im gonna go get him a limited edition deck

i've got no knowlegde of decks/board

but i will try to do my research and get it =)

tell me im a caring and nice gf

of cause i am

but i can get absolutely nasty too

naz should know

he's been through so many of my stupid mood swings

and the least i can do for him is to get him something

bunga api day is today

im going to stand far away from the rest when playing

we wouldnt want history to repeat itself

and in 3 days, we will be celebrating hari raya

kecik keeps reminding me to give her an angpao

so thick skin

i'll give you one alright and i'll put tissue paper inside

hahahahaha

can work just end quickly pls?

2009-09-16T21:43:00.002+08:00

this would be my contest entry for diana's contest

naz said he really liked it

and im so excited for tomorow

it's going to be bunga api time!

i promise i wont burn anybody's clothes this year

pinky swear

2009-09-16T08:08:00.001+08:00

happy 44th birthday mom

i got mom a prune cheesecake from polar

dont even ask where's my picture with mom

i looked hideous, so i'll spare you guys from looking at my horrendous face

2009-09-13T23:05:00.005+08:00

went shopping with naz
got myself 2 things

im close to becoming extremely broke

(well when have i ever been very rich in the first place?)

i better not berangan like im rich

naz got himself a pair of crocs

and he kept emphasizing how amazing that pair of slippers was

said it felt like he was walking on air =)

well he paid about 55bucks for that pair so it better make him feel like he's walking on air

hahah

bought myself a mphosis bag

thought i'd recycle last year's clutch but i clumsily tugged the clutch too hard it broke

*slaps forehead*

the curling iron was just an extra

it was selling at $35, so why not?

thought of having my hair permed for raya anyway

it's 11:26 now and i should be happily snoring away in bed

so so so

i'll update my boring blod another day

bye

2009-09-12T22:38:00.002+08:00

went to geylang today with the family plus naz

got my baju kurung (i bought 2)

one frm first lady, the other frm bimla

what's bimla tagline?

oh yeah

"jagan risau, ada bimla"

(if im not mistaken lah, that's the tagline)

hahaha

somehow i find that so corny

but they're having this sale in which you buy 2 get 1 free

eh fatin, now a promoter of bimla ke

ish ish, no lah, just to let you people know

i wanted to get sparklers/bunga api

but after walking and walking and walking

i totally forgot

-_________-

will go try search for them tomorow with naz

updating onsugar right now

havent been updating there for ages

and i still havent figured out what to do for diana's contest

somebody inspire me pls

oh yes

before i forget

while i was at imm today

my oh my

if you're not fasting

well that's entirely up to you

but come on man, dont freaking eat a freaking hamburger with your outmost shiokface

spare a thought for those who are

besarnya tak tau malu

satu family pulak tu

mampos

2009-09-11T12:17:00.002+08:00

right now

my head's spinning

dad told me something that's worrying me

the headaches are really getting to me

remember how i said i wished i was paris hilton?

well this would be a good time to be a dumb blonde but rich

it will make my life a whole lot better

tonight im going to wak midah's house for break fast

and at night i'll be messing around with my makeup stuffs

will try to do a few looks for diana's contest

blog's getting very uninteresting

even my onsugar has been neglected for the past week

just keep a lookout for my contest entry alright you guys

and i cant wait for the 16th, 17th and 18th

mom's birthday on the 16th

bunga api with the friends on the 17th

birthday celebration for the bf on the 18th

3 straight up fun freaking days i'll be having

i need my paddlepop ice cream

that's one of the things that'll make me happy

2009-09-10T09:41:00.003+08:00

sister ratted me out

she raped my closet and told mom she found a packet of winstons in my underwear drawer

why are you so kepo kecik?

and since yesterday mom hasnt said anything to me

tomorow i'll be all alone in the office

or i think i would be

not too sure

if sorang2 pat office, drive kereta jln2 pat juroing point 2 jam pastu balik office pon banyak cantik

it's only the 4th day at work

and im already feeling like i've been here for eons

2009-09-08T13:54:00.002+08:00

imagine this

it's not even 2pm and i've got no more work to do

i should be thankful because it simply means i've got time to rest

BUT

i rather it be abit busy, atleast time would pass by slightly faster

i cant go out to smoke(im fasting)

cant go to the canteen to buy a drink too due to the fact im fasting

here i am staring at the com doing nothing

well i was browsing through a few sites

but still, another 3 more hours to go

afterwhich i'll be home sweet home

naz is off to buy his new deck and bearings

wah go shopping without me eh

and now there's a problem

my pay for downtown east will only be in on the 7th next month

wth?

as stated in the previous post

I'VE GOT 2 BIRTHDAYS THIS MONTH

200bucks is not ENOUGH

wah stress already

can mati like this

2009-09-07T20:33:00.002+08:00

work at fox ended yesterday

and today im already starting my fulltime job over at ryder

im EXHAUSTED

someone was teaching me on the what to do's, i almost fell alseep while she was explaining

but lucky i managed to force myself not too

after minusing off everything that i've spent(i seriously do any heavy damage buying ok)

and minusing off the money i need to use for hari raya

im left with a mere 200bucks in my bank account

damn freaking sad right?

but not too worry

i'll soon be getting the downtown east pay from fox (hopefully soon)

i've got 2 important birthdays in sept

I NEED MONEY

im joining another contest soon

wish me luck =)

2009-09-05T01:01:00.002+08:00

im starting my fulltime job next monday

more money money money

and 2 days left till the sale ends

im dead tired and irritated by someone

why lah why lah why lah

2009-09-02T22:21:00.002+08:00

my life in hell starts tomorow

another sale yet again plus another 12 hours of freaking just standing and folding clothes

for 4 freaking days

it's all about the money baby

i need it, DESPERATELY

date: 3rd to 6th sept

venue: d'marquee

time: 10am - 10pm

brands: FOX, newurbanmale, B.U.M plus a few others

i cant remember

i must say this one would be much more better than the one at expo

well atleast we dont have to see that irritating lady right naz?

senang-senang turun lah ye

kalau kesiankan aku

bawaklah makan skali

hahahahaha - imagine this being a sarcastic with my eyes rolling 360 degrees

2009-09-01T17:44:00.002+08:00

will be working over at downtown east starting from tomorow

so i might as well take the free time that i have and make an entry

i had an interview over at the previous company i've worked for

and im probably going to start work on the following Monday

it will only be on a 1(or 2, cant remember) year contract basis but hey

im freaking desperate for a job, so why not aye?

when walking to get to the main lobby

the place looked so EMPTY

it was never like before

but atleast i still saw a few people there that i knew before i got retrenched

but now im thinking

what will happen to me after the contract?

am i going to be out of job again?

i cant keep going back to deli

and i definitely cannot just only have my stinking higher nitec cert

headaches, headaches, headaches

if only i was stinking rich like damn paris hilton

i wouldnt mind being a dumb blonde

dodol died yesterday

dodol was one of the first 2 terrapins that i got

and now im left with dolmat and dolwhite

i think dolwhite's going to die next

can my life get any sadder?

2009-08-31T20:11:00.003+08:00

picture below will scare the shits out of you people who read my blog

but be rest assured!

i did not freaking shave my eyebrows off

i did a tag at onsugar and tagged everyone to recreate qn number 29

which was

"name the makeup crime that you hate"

so my answer to that question was OVEL SHAPED EYEBROWS

plus i added in a few other things as well

ok no joke, no intentions of dissing anyone BUT

come on man, going out with egg traced eyebrows

is a BIG NO NO

ok everyone who has known me for years

you people might have know the number of eyebrow shapes and sizes i've been through right?

from the sparse, the thin, the almost bald and the cut and paste eyebrows

and after many many MANY years of practice i shall say that i have somewhat mastered the art of the eyebrows (wah i sound like some kungfu master shit)

( i tried to cover my eyebrows, but alamak, FAILED badly)

alamak, i wanted to post pictures of my elf items too

i'll do another entry for those

(just check out my onsugar blog! too lazy to update here)

so go laugh your asses off with the picture alright!

2009-08-27T00:04:00.002+08:00

i wont be updating for the next 2 weeks

i'll do my normal entries after the 6th of september

working with naz is a blast

im dead tired from all that standing

but lucky me i have naz with me

if not i'll be so damn freaking bored and alone

and thank you for sending me to bugis

you shouldnt have

i love you naz =)

after four (five?) days of fasting

i think i've lost a tremendous amount of weight

my body now look's like beyonce

wahahahahahahaha

of course im joking lah! wth

2009-08-25T17:42:00.002+08:00

i think im going to be sick

hopefully not, i've got work tomorow

i miss naz

i want to play l4d lei, let's go and play for long hours once our pay is in?

2009-08-23T20:24:00.006+08:00

today i cooked chicken + fishball + tofu fishcake + sayur(tk tau sayur apa) + crabstick + mushroom soup

how? fats power or what!

well of course

i did not do it willingly

got paksa by my mother

after helping her cut everything up i wanted to cabut

but didnt managed to cabut fast enough

wah lau eh

untie idah passed my mom the catalouge from batam

i browsed through and my oh my, im thinking about getting 2 more lipsticks!

maybe plus a few other items

but alamak

i already swore that i wouldnt splurge on makeup

wah lau eh, wah lau eh, wah lau eh, wah lau eh

fats stress already

and to all below

i love you guys

like for real man

as britney spears would sing it
"from the bottom of my broken heart" (what broken?)

well ok not broken lah but you get what i mean

i miss you too joyce

when want to meet again!

2009-08-22T23:23:00.003+08:00

im still waiting for my elf spree items to arrive

half of it has already reached singapore but because there's a backorder i'll have to wait a wee bit longer

very sedih you know

i'll do an entry on the things i ordered from elf once i've received them

tk sabar lah

the first day of the fasting month was alright

im still feeling alittle bit lethargic from yesterday's party

mom's a housewife now

she's no longer working

and dad told me that i'd have to give mom money like i used to

but how?

alamak, very pening kepala man

im trying to loose weight

hopefully it works out for me

i've been doing a crazy number of crunches today

pls pls pls pls let me get back in shape

hahah

2009-08-22T01:37:00.002+08:00

selamat berpuasa everyone

working with naz was a blast

i'll see you on sunday alright, need to go take our temp pass

in both our minds, we're already planning what to get once our pay is in

damn shiok man

to amin

thank you for planning that party for all of us

you'll definitely be missed

but we will go out together as a group soon alright

it's already 145am

i might as well stay up and sleep later

love you naz and im already missing you

2009-08-20T22:01:00.002+08:00

in MY previous entry on the 16th of August 2009

i've already stated that i wasnt going to touch on this topic again

this would be the very last time, LAST TIME

SO READ EXTREMELY CAREFULLY

as much you are entitled to your opinions Jianxiang

many others are entitled to theirs

agree?

19 August entry made by you

it was never your fault? and that it's never going to be?

are you so damn sure?

are you trying to make yourself look stupid?

let me refresh your memory Jianxiang

on the 12th of August 2009 at 11.37pm posted by Jianxiang

you EXPOSED my close friend

you freaking made a rude entry about him

telling the whole world about his own privacy which NEVER SHOULDNT have been

and you still have the cheek to say IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT

now let me ask you, up till now i havent gotten a reply from you yet

why the hell are you so keen on exposing him?

why, do tell me my dear, I WOULD LOVE TO HEAR FROM YOU

you better give me a perfectly GOOD EXPLANATION by tomorow night

as far as i am concerned

i do know that after you've blogged your most wonderful entry ever, my friend gave you a reply on his blog

and as for me i did so too

TWICE

first on the 14th of August

i admit on the first entry i was rude and no Jianxiang, im not going to apologise

second on the 16th of August

on the second entry i believe i was nice and i did my part of the explanation

once again im going to tell you

the one thing im so pissed about is you making that entry on my close friend

DO YOU UNDERSTAND NOW?

one of the sickening thing that you've done to irked me even more

is you apologised to me at my tagboard

and what did you do next?

you called me a bitch and claimed that i started the whole commotion and even asked me to shut the fuck up

and what did you say next over at twitter?

"Wants to kill all that fucking irritating, brainless, dumb, parentless, knowledgeless, bitch of a son, son of a bitch. Kill you all! 1 by 1"

irritating? yes i can get extremely irritating at times

brainless? i dont think so my dear, i've graduated way before you did my dear

dumb? just explained in the above line

parentless? nope both my parents are very much alive thank you

knowledgeless? nope i believe i know more than you do Jianxiang, i can confidently say i've experienced more then whatever you have

bitch of a son? wth were you ever trying to say here? bitch of a son? no such thing lei

now let me explain to you again very carefully

your entry was made on the 12th of August 2009

mine was made on the 14th and 16th of August 2009

who do you think now started the whole commotion?

like i've said before

you Jianxiang started it, and i only joined in

how nice of you to do all that

then afterwhich you post so many entries saying how you love the rest of them and how they are like a family to you?

after i heard so many things you've said about them

so very extremely contradicting dont you think?

pls delete my url from your links section (i've deleted yours btw)

i dont ever want to see my name there ever again

and pls do make your blog private

i am no longer bothered to read anything that you have to say

and you can go on and on and on and on how bitchy i am once your blog has been put to private

and pls let me correct you

"And they protect my from behind"

it should be

"AND THEY PROTECT ME FROM BEHIND"

no wait even that sounds wrong, it should be

"MY FRIENDS HAVE MY BACK AND THEY WOULD BE THERE TO PROTECT ME"

sounds better right, go change lah

no it's not "PREAK"

it's "PRICK"

hopefully i will see you tomorow

and i will discuss about this "commotion" with you face to face

only you and me, let us act like adults shall we?

and pls, just to let you know

i am not the ex-fren or Doe who tagged you

but i do think that it is funny

haha

and yes this would be the very last entry for the whole" that bitch started the commotion"

i will talk to you tomorow

be prepared Jianxiang

because this bitch (as you have claimed me to be) has got alot on her mind

and i would love to share it with you

gd night

sweet dreams Jianxiang

do try to think carefully about what you're going to say to me tomorow will you?

2009-08-19T14:09:00.002+08:00

i'll be working at expo for a week

another week i'll be over at downtown east

and im not even sure if i can make it on friday night

the job will only be temporary

but hey, im getting much longer hours

but it's nice that i get to work with naz

kita lipat baju together together ok

2009-08-16T23:10:00.002+08:00

orphan was awesome

it isnt as scary as i thought it would be

BUT

somehow it can happen in reality

if you cant have babies and wish to adopt

freaking do a check first before you suka suka want to angkat lah

i've been thinking for the past few days

im spending way too much money on makeup

(oh yah, now then want to realise, bloody cb fats)

my makeup collection has grown and i've come to realise that i dont even use most of them

especially my lipsticks

the number of eyeshadows i have are increasing and i believe what i have now should be more than enough to last me donkey years

so here i am today

swearing on my blog buttcracks

i Fatin Nur Tiara Binte Nordin(sial lah, full name, bloody hell oink oink sia)

will not buy anymore unneccesary makeup starting from now

(no money also, so of cause cannot buy lah)

UNLESS, i do really need it(basic needs)

BUT, if i really do want something really really really extremely badly which is more of a WANT but not a need

i'll think about it ever so carefully before purchasing it

and i swear that for now im not going to purchase any high end brands of makeup simply because i cant afford it

2nd thing im going to swear upon

i Fatin Nur Tiara Binte Nordin

will try to control my temper and try to minimize my unruly attitude/character

i believe there are times when i do say things that i dont mean

but knowing me, i dont use my brain to think before i speak

i tend to spit whatever crap that comes to mind first, therefore i tend to hurt close ones

3rd thing im going to swear upon

i Fatin Nur Tiara Binte Nordin

will get back in shape

she's getting too big and she's feeling very unhealthy

drop the kilos fats, yes i will

but i wont be stick thin

(if not wont go with my name fats what)

next topic im going to touch on would be my previous entry

let's not talk about my existence at deli

i've been out of the picture for almost close to a year after getting a fulltime job at a logistics company

but after the retrenchment period i came back and hell am i ever as grateful to angie for allowing me to

and im going to make things clear and i say that i am not pissed for myself because of what you have or as you put it "your privilage"

well good for you, if you believe it is

but im pissed for my friends

maybe we shall not use the word pissed

maybe i shall say it leaves me in awe

seeing and knowing that most of them have worked longer

why aren't they given the same "privilage"

isnt that a tad bit unfair?

of course if people were to find out, they would question and ask why

wouldnt you agree?

knowing that 2 of them have worked their ass off and for them to have what they have

i shall say they've earned it

to whether i think you've earned it or not

i do not know, maybe SHE thinks that you have

and another topic that i am going to touch on

one my close friend was exposed

there are things that we can discuss and to keep amongst ourselves

but these things are not meant for the whole world to know

im going to say that people will be people

whatever or whoever they choose to be, they are still people with feelings

and that whatever is going on with them or whether that situation has passed

each individual should be respected

i too once questioned why

but then i figured, i shall accept all my friends for whatever and whoever they are

it's been like months, but why is it that you are still not over it?

and i still cant figure out why during the past few months you wanted to expose this close friend of mine

maybe you can tell me or explain to me why?

i doubt that he has done anything wrong to you

like i've said

there are things that only to be kept amongst us

not to tell it to whole freaking world about it

as much as i appreciate you apologising to me at my tagboard

but my dear, to find out you twittered about me starting a comotion and asking me to shut the fuck up

this is fats my dear

she never does shut the fuck up

no im not starting a comotion

as you've exposed my friend in your blog

shall i say that you've started the comotion first and that im only continuing or joining it

but this post shall end here

never am i going to touch on this topic again

because for me

it's done and over with

2009-08-14T18:42:00.003+08:00

nobody ever said i was easy to be with

no im not going to apologise this time round because im stubborn, fucking stubborn

it may be my fault

but my ego is too damn huge

so take it or leave it

i had a bad day at work

did you even know that?

tau how many fucking stupid people i had to entertain at work

plus im having my goddamn menses and it DOESNT FUCKING HELP AT ALL

im running around deli like a fucking asshole

and of course anyone would be pissed

im tired, im pissed, im STRESSED OUT

the outlet's closing down soon

and i dont like the fact that i might be transferred out

and mostly it feels so heartbreaking to know i wont be able to have my closests friends close to me anymore

and after reading something

i agree with suriati, BULLSHIT

and pls let me add

DISGUSTING

and i do not know why, or rather i think i can figure out why you're always the one getting better opportunities than the rest do

because i can see who deserves it and who doesnt

just because someone's working two jobs you gave him the extra pay and another job

you stupid faggot, what about the rest?

they've work longer

stupid fat ass bitch, im so pissed

and why is it that i hear this person is being transferred but there's no news abt the rest status on what will happen to them

idiots

my mom wont be working anymore starting from next monday

and i still have no FUCKING FULL TIME JOB

and how the fucking hell am i suppose to be helping out

well everybody's stressed out about something

but i cant help it

yes, i do get pissed ever so easily

WHATEVER

lucky me im fucking dead broke

i'd probably will be happily chain smoking if i wasnt

yes im FUCKING STRESSED like that

im gonna watch orphan tomorow

that damn movie better scare the shits out of me

if not im going to rip the person who sells me the ticket to pieces

2009-08-13T20:37:00.004+08:00

this would another one of my contest entry for Sarah's contest

wish me luck!, wish me luck!, wish me luck!

will be meeting naz tomorow

he'll be helping me with the video editing

and i seriously need to go look for iqi's bday present

i just spent money on makeup again

BUT

it's cheap, so no worries =)

(besok confirm kene mara)

go to

http://allatfivebucks.blogspot.com

2009-08-12T23:38:00.002+08:00

im sorry i sounded so pissed while talking to you on the phone

blame it on the menses

im sorry

stomach cramps are straight up bugging me

looking forward to watching orphan on saturday

aku tadi kata nak diet

aku telan satu eclair dgn 3 fruit tart

diet gila babi

sebelum tu, minum large coke and makan shaker fries

baik ah fats

2009-08-10T22:28:00.003+08:00

my first entry for Sarah's makeup giveaway

im gonna have to redo this, just checked her channel and just realised that i need to do it similar to hers

and i will be doing another look for the contest

wish me luck!

2009-08-10T22:22:00.002+08:00

i love nazri bin bajuri

2009-08-09T00:56:00.004+08:00

i went out with the little sister and the bf on the 7th

got a few stuffs for myself

had lunch at an indian restaurant at fareast plaza

and the food was yummy yummy yummy!

SEDAP GILA BABI LAH

and today(on the 8th, im posting this at 1.07 am)

went out with the bf again

i had hell lot of fun

thank you so much =)

eventhough i only bought a couple of things

it really did do quite a damage to my wallet =(

but no regrets!

and next friday im gonna get my elf items!

yeah!!!

more makeup for me!

remember previously i kept saying i was going to enter youtube's contests?

well i never did

but this time round, i'll give it a shot (for real this time)

wish me luck guys

after im done

i'll post my video entry here

oh yeah, i took the bus to bugis today

and some lady's eyebrows looked like she took an egg and traced it and tried to make it look like eyebrows

i couldnt help but to keep looking

girls, pls dont have thin and no eyebrows at all

it looks hella ugly

one more thing before i go

there's youtube and google for god's sake

go check up on "how to get perfect eyebrows"

it will do all of you ladies good

and i've started dieting today

im so proud of myself =)

2009-08-03T22:10:00.002+08:00

about an hour ago, i received good(hopeful) news

if given the opportunity

i might be working in the same company as dad again

i wouldnt mind at all even if it were a 2 year contract

im just crossing my fingers and hoping something good comes out of it

2009-07-31T23:21:00.002+08:00

ye muka tk perlu eh fats

there are a couple more pictures

but im simply too lazy

love you naz

besok see fireworks!

2009-07-30T22:51:00.003+08:00

thank you all for the birthday wishes

and definitely a big huge thank you to naz for everything

i love the presents

i'll post pictures tomorow

love you

thank you to my dad too for belanje-ing me to swensons

gila babi sedap power gedebak

it would 2 years since granpa passed away

i love you atok

2009-07-29T17:13:00.002+08:00

i cant wait for L4D 2

i cant wait for L4D 2
i cant wait for L4D 2
i cant wait for L4D 2
i cant wait for L4D 2
i cant wait for L4D 2
i cant wait for L4D 2

im watching a vid on it now

and my oh my

it's getting me all stoked about it

and guess what?

im now friends with nenek keropok at facebook

go to my friend's page, you'll see her there

haha

aren't my entries getting shorter and shorter?

i've been too busy with onsugar i guess

another interview at NUH tomorow

hopefully everything goes well

i've been waiting almost a month

and by tomorow i shall wait no more =)

(woah that last sentence just made me sound like a poet, shut up fats)

2009-07-28T21:00:00.002+08:00

tadi bila i call you, you tk answer

i call banyak kali sampai jadi gila

abih matair aku asik nak skate sahaje

aku bingit pastu aku rilek one corner

im a zee avi copy failure

hahahahahahaha

a total useless entry

2009-07-27T17:29:00.001+08:00

another interview tomorow

i need a job really BADLY

and if it's at clementi, why not?

2009-07-24T23:30:00.004+08:00

i wish to have long beautiful wavy curls

i miss my old extensions =(

meeting naz tomorow

going to punggul end

and im turning 20 very very soon

i feel dead old

i've made a decision

the mini series i've decided to start off with are the powerpuff girls

so do keep a lookout for the inspired looks alright =)

oh yeah, i just remembered

the other day when i was working with chris

an extremely nice lady came in, had breakfast and said she liked the christian songs that were playing in deli

oh god, just imagine if she hear love in this club or turn me on after hearing amazing grace

she wouldnt think the songs are nice wont she now?

2009-07-22T18:09:00.003+08:00

i was checking out my onsugar blog and i just realised i now have 20 followers

*weeeeeeeee, fats jumping up and down*

wow, and that really made my day a good one

mya will doing an AVON spree

im very very very very excited

but i'll have to wait for next week till the catalouge is in

i havent had any inspiration to do any looks for the past week

i guess my brain isnt really working too well for me

everytime i try to make an attempt, it just turns out very bleargh

i do have a few ideas

will probably do a mini series for my onsugar blog

im thinking of doing the powerpuff girls first

how about that?

and also i thought of doing celebrity inspired makeup too

but that would be way out of my league

but i'll give it a shot

haiya, kepala very the pening lah

and and and, i know a certain someone's going to get me a certain cake and im certainly very very happy =)

2009-07-22T09:36:00.002+08:00

my dad now has facebook

like whaaaaaaaattttttttttttttttttttt

*throwing hands in the air*

and you still owe me an explanation

another friend said maybe she's afraid you might flare at her

now let's see

if i were a friend who didnt care

i would say

"babe go do whatever the hell you want, and if you're happy i'll be happy for you too"

well too bad

im not like that

many of those who know me would jolly well know that if i have a fucking opinion

i'd tell you

i may not always be there or i might not be the one whom you feel might be the right person to confide to

but i can try to atleast give my opinion and thoughts on it

i believe i have done it before

either it was just brushed aside or it was just totally ignored

a friend said maybe she's confused

well maybe just maybe she is

and maybe she has awhole load of shit going on

but sometimes you can AVOID it

imagine a scenario in which you're standing on a train track

and the train's coming towards you

you've got 2 options

1) just stand at the bloody damn track and get killed

2) get the hell out by jumping of it or running out of it

if anyone of you chooses option number 1

then fuck, all of you deserve to get knocked down by a train and die

i've told a handful that i've already decided to give up

but somehow there's a part of me that says i shouldnt

so which is which?

dear friend, im worried

hell yes i am

i dont meet you often as i would like to

and the only way that i can catch up with you on your life would be through your pvt journal

but even that seems to belit-belit in many diff ways

there used to be only 2 i think, now there's another 2 more

who the hell are they?

i wont be surprised or shocked if there's more

yes im freaking pissed, i was talking to rahman yesterday and hell i nearly flared like crazy at work

but luckily i was squeezing kaya into the goddamn small containers and that somehow managed to calm me down

damnit, i need to rush to work now

2009-07-21T20:09:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 44TH BIRTHDAY DAD!

while most would say their dad is cool

well my dad's the COOLEST

try to beat that, well i guess you cant

can your dad dance like mj and do the moonwalk like mj does?

HELL NO

my dad can, so boo!

happy birthday dad

i love you

present takda lah

no money (same as usual)

but i will get him something when the pay comes in

i asked kecik what was sweet in malay

her answer

MASIN

*roll eyes*

2009-07-20T15:26:00.002+08:00

bla bla bla bla bla

bla bla bla bla bla bla bla

bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla

bla bla bla blablablabla

bla bla bla bla

bla bla bla bla blabla bla

bla bla bla bla

bla bla

bla

bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla

the point of the entry?

well there's no point to it dumbass

maybe if you're feeling down or just plain straightup confused or sad

go sit in your room

close the windows, lock your bedroom door, stare at yourself in the mirror with your eyes wide open and say

bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla

bla bla bla bla bla bla

bla bla bla

bla bla

bla bla bla bla bla

bla bla bla bla

bla

as many times as you'd like

doesn't it make you feel better?

and not only will you feel better, you will find yourself sounding so freakingly funny

you'll probably look at yourself in the mirror and say

"man *insert own name* you're crazy"

ps: if you actually followed whatever i told you to do, you must be one huge dumbass

but yeah, it wouldnt hurt to try =)

2009-07-19T16:28:00.004+08:00

muka gila babi sak fats

my nose seems to be abit senget

hahahahahahahaha

met naz yesterday

play l4d, havent played it for quite awhile

im getting very very rusty

i dont really like to meddle with people's past

but anyway im looking forward to the 15th

sesapa nak duduk kereta aku?

2009-07-17T18:50:00.003+08:00

fats is very much alive and she's not dead yet

my lappy crashed on me

i havent been online for a week or so?

and i feel that a once close friend and me, we're drifting apart

well you know what

i think you do have someone better to confide in anyway

and not forgetting

im going to apologise to naz for the whole week of hell

i know my mood swings are getting way out of hand

and probably should go bang my head against a wall

im really really sorry

will you forgive me?

let me tell you guys abit of a little something

the other day i nearly won freaking 4d

but nooooooooooo, god said, play 4d and go to hell fats, you're never winning

the number i betted on 8719

but want to know what the 3rd prize number was

8717

871 freaking 7!

that freaking 7 had to get on my damn nerves

my terrapins aren't doing too well

they're probably going to die soon

i had fun with joyce and naz the other day

after for so long

i finally got to meet joyce

and im glad you liked the presents =)

i'll update pretty pretty soon

now get lost

2009-07-04T01:20:00.001+08:00

the blog's suspended. lappy's condemned.out.

2009-07-01T22:06:00.002+08:00

six was having this major crazy sale where everything was only a dollar!
i wanted to get more, but people kept blocking me and it was too damn squeezy
i hate it when im looking at something and people just start turning the bloody thing

so yeah
i managed to get 4 earrings and one ring
all courtesy of naz
=)
(yiippeee hoooo haaaa heeeeyyyyyy)
thank you so much for the treat and the presents
i love you =)

2009-06-30T19:45:00.002+08:00

i was disturbing dad and mom abt them getting the gst money
told dad i wanted to borrow 30bucks cos i wanted to get some stuffs from the elf studio line
and guess what?
dad said
"dah lah aku kesiankan kau punya pasal, baba presentkan $50"
wahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

my oh my oh my
how lucky am i?
just getting that $50
makes me feel so damn sticking rich

so yeah, im leaving you guys with this unimportant entry
im gonna go make a list of things i want to buy
weeeeeeeeeeeee

2009-06-25T21:32:00.001+08:00

to prove that i am so damn freaking bored
im watching people make chocolate chip cookies on youtube

now since i have already wasted one space entry with useless nothings
im going to go search for cooking games online

so bye and get lost

2009-06-24T21:58:00.003+08:00

i was all psyched for the outing with the onsugar ladies

when BAM!
the color craft collection is only till the 2nd of july
and the ladies would be going on the 4th, but the date is yet to be confirmed
(could it get any worse?)
boohoo for me as the damn pay day wont be in by then
i'll probably only go after that

i'll be doing syimah's eye makeup this coming saturday
purple smokey eye aye? ill try to come up with something alright syimah
=)

i do know that i am becoming a big huge complain queen (even i agree "big huge" isnt the right word to use)
well let me ramble on and on and on
yes im complaining im not earning much
yes im complaining its getting damn freaking hard to find a motherfucking fulltime job
yes im complaining that i need to go get better education
yes im complaining about awhole load of other stuffs which im stupidly complaining about

naz was telling me how his friend or brother's friend who has a dip in mass com and he ended up working as a cleaner
hell yeah you read that right
CLEANER

so where does that leave us the "higher nitec" graduates?
working as what? nose pickers?
yeah i had a good laugh with naz about that
but seriously, when i come to think of it, where does that leave me?

fuck im jealous of friends who are still in school taking their dips
fuck im jealous of friends who are taking their degree
fuck im jealous of everyone who is having a higher education than me
need i say more?

and who the hell gave crudential or prudential my freaking hp number
no im sorry but im not interested in any insurance crap

as i was telling mom that i currently had 11 followers on onsugar
she laughed and said
"well are you making money out of it?"
you know what, i may not be making any money from it
atleast i get good comments and these are coming from people who dont know me
and just by getting those comments, it perks me up and it makes me feel good about myself

and i was hoping you would atleast say something good about the looks i did
but hell was i wrong about it

putting every single crappy thing aside

i think i do have a few things to look forward to
for one im gonna learn how to fish (with naz help of course)
two im going to go camera hunting with naz next friday (ceh ceh ceh, ada orang tu nak beli cam seh)
three im going to keep practicing on my makeup and get better on it
four ... well whatever good comes in my way

and in my next entry on onsugar
im going to try and replicate christina aguilera's look
(picture below)
ambitious? yeah i guess so
i need to go look for similar lashes or alternatives to it
and i need a blonde wig, if not pkai je mop

oh yeah
did i tell anyone that i dreamt deli was going to increase our pay to $5.20 per hour?
well ooops, dream only ah

2009-06-23T22:58:00.005+08:00

http://adorebeauty.onsugar.com/3326524

check the link out
i've been invited to go shopping for the Color Craft Collection with a few lovely ladies from onsugar!
hopefully my pay will be in by then and that it doesnt clash with the 11th July outing

and if you havent see the collection yet
the stuffs AMAZING
im probably gonna get myself a maximum of 3 things from the collection
cannot many-many ah, money no enough
if only there was a site with the list of prices of each item
it would definitely make my life a whole lot easier

and he went fishing
i miss you

anyways, onsugar blog updated again
buttcracks.onsugar.com

I MISS JOYCE YAP HUI MIN
must meet me leh!

and i fucking dont get why fucking facebook has to hang every single fucking time i want to upload my pictures
and im probably gonna go delete facebook too

2009-06-22T20:20:00.004+08:00

i will make things clear
dont worry, nobody bothers to read my blog anyway

you might have made things clear to her
but it's so freaking obvious your BEST FRIEND doesnt understand a word you say
and pls, dont complain whenever she msgs you

you are being a good bf by telling me so and so msg you
but i have repeatedly and in many countless times that i cannot be bothered about her
hearing her name or reading it through msgs irritates the shit out of me

if you really dont want her msging you ANYMORE
go meet her and tell her that
"oh hasanah, you are a freaking irritating little twirp that irritates the crap out of me, get out of my life and fucking go away"
simple enough?

and my dear
if by any chance you are reading this, which i am hoping you are
pls leave him alone

i have got nothing against you, seriously
and i really dont mine you being his friend
but pls
i cant stand it anymore
so pls go so freaking far away so that i will never hear your name again

and if i do happen to hear or read your name somewhere
i am so gonna be freaking pissed and hysterical

nobody likes it when fats turns hysterical

2009-06-21T20:35:00.007+08:00

celebrated farlinah's birthday and father's day at my uncle's house today

(the birthday girl is in yellow, tu yang pat tengah tembam-tembam)

food was awesome
and i ate way too much
not to worry, i'll start my diet tomorow (macam paham)

but the most fun part about today had to be the waterbombs
(mom helped to take pictures)
i was too busy with trying to soak everyone

dont play play ah, phua chu kang wear yellow boots
syirah wear red boots, best punya!
somehow mom managed to snap "glamorous" pics of me

(cantik benar aku kangkang cam liang po po)

two words
ABSOLUTE FUN

i should do this more often with the cousins

2009-06-19T22:26:00.003+08:00

happy seven months baby =)

someone ankle sakit but still go sunplaza and skate

about the interview
im not even gonna start, it will just piss me off even further

ahhh, i found out that there's a training at 11 pm tomorow
yes 11pm, who in the hell would have training at 11pm

did another one today
tell me what you think =)
check out http://buttcracks.onsugar.com for more pictures

oh yes, friendster has been deleted
and facebook is getting way to boring

2009-06-17T16:57:00.003+08:00

someone's trying to bedek me at my tagboard
i know who you are!
well i didnt have to figure that one out
the person told me abt it himself
hahah

i seriously can't wait for next month's pay
i already have in mind what i want to get
but i still have to narrow down the list further as you all know
our pay sucks, am i not right?
hell yes i am

work's been slightly hectic
i've been getting to meet alot of yayapapaya people lately

and the skin on the back of neck is so dry
the huge freaking zit on my face isnt going away
oh why oh why

hopefully this friday's interview goes well
i wouldnt mind chopping passports for life

naz naz naz, can faster fill up the online form
i miss you lah

i have finally came to a decision to delete my friendster account
it's been left there for so long
so what's the point of keeping it right
but i'll still be on facebook though

2009-06-13T23:56:00.004+08:00

firstly, before i talk about everything else
stupid m*****
panggil my bf sala timing ok

naz was suppose to meet me and family for a movie today at causeway
but the minute he reached woodlands
he received a text saying that he was m********
* like wtf nb cb!*

i was so looking forward to meeting naz
damn you m***** for stealing my bf away from me
but it's alright
i did get to meet him about half an hour ago
will be meeting him tomorow too
hohohohohoho

and dad wants to go for brisk walking again tomorow morning
-_______-

mom said the makeup look i did looked like hantu
another -______-

a tip to note
if you're thinking of watching "drag me to hell", stick to the popcorns, dont buy nachos
im not joking

2009-06-12T22:48:00.003+08:00

new pictures!
so what do you guys think?

i wanted to try something new
so i came up with this
yes yes, i'm in my pyjamas

i miss naz
and how i wished i could say or do the right thing every single time
i'm sorry
i really really am
i love you

dad wants to go brisk walking with him at 630am, together with mom and kecik
can i do sleep walking instead?

2009-06-12T00:22:00.002+08:00

EXHAUSTED

yes im tired to the T-I-R-E-D

but even after the most exhausting and irritating day anyone could ever have

seeing nice comments given to me on my onsugar account

and seeing that a few people are actually following my onsugar blog makes me freaking stoked about it

how cool is that?

i am hoping and praying that ica or scdf could call me

yes im so desperate that i actually sent my resume to apply for customs, as a paramedic specialist and also prison officer

you over there on the other side of the com

don't give me that look

i know what you're thinking

fats a paramedic?

fats a prison officer?

what the fuck right?

i cant believe it either

well you cant expect me to be working at deli forever, you must be fucking kidding me

i seriously need sleep

i've only got 5 hours to sleep afterwhich i've got to get my ass to work

how amazingly wonderful

i should probably close this blog of mine