dad said, when one day he and mom grow really old

he wants to be the first to go

he said he wouldnt be able to take it if mom went first

cos he said he believed that if mom went first, then probably in a few months time it would be his turn

it was scary when dad was talking to me about death

i nearly teared, but managed to stop myself frm crying

it has came across in my mind that someday both my parents would eventually be gone

but i dont want to think about that now, cos it scares the crap out of me

all the time i've been saying im independent, but no i do need my parents

i need my family