now i really understood when dad said how strong politics were over in the department im working in

first off, i am not racists

one of my best friend is a chinese

and when i was in secondary school

especially in the first 2 years, i mingled with more of the chinese than of my own race

funny thing about us human beings

we always assume that people of other races diff from ours will never understand our language

(hopefully that previous line makes sense)

like how it is happening at work

i dont think im any inferior or should i be afraid of the majority which is not of my own race

i honestly do not mind at all working with anyone of any race

but i like how i started this entry

now i really do realize on how strong the politics are

i have always thought of myself as a strong person

i have always thought of myself as someone who could take any crap from anyone

but now the one thing i have realize about myself (which i dont even want to admit), is that i am impatient

naz would definitely say, true to that

i am not a quitter mind you

but somehow i get too impatient at times which will lead me to quitting

or in other words

"terlalu ikutkan hati"

i told dad how i couldnt take the politics over here

and hearing the things i hear, isnt really what you would call nice

there are times at work i do have this sudden urge to just hit someone in the face

just hit them really hard to just get the message straight

not all are that too over the top

only about a handful

and because of this so called stress or whatever pressure im feeling

i've been taking it out on naz

and it's definitely has not been fair

yesterday l4d's session with naz was awesome

i got to fucking shoot zombies in the heads

and believe me when i say i was imagining some of the zombies to be some people that i would really love to shoot if i was given the chance too

and bloody hell the uncle charged us $9.30 per person for playing only 3plus hours

like what the big fuck