orphan was awesome

it isnt as scary as i thought it would be

BUT

somehow it can happen in reality

if you cant have babies and wish to adopt

freaking do a check first before you suka suka want to angkat lah

i've been thinking for the past few days

im spending way too much money on makeup

(oh yah, now then want to realise, bloody cb fats)

my makeup collection has grown and i've come to realise that i dont even use most of them

especially my lipsticks

the number of eyeshadows i have are increasing and i believe what i have now should be more than enough to last me donkey years

so here i am today

swearing on my blog buttcracks

i Fatin Nur Tiara Binte Nordin(sial lah, full name, bloody hell oink oink sia)

will not buy anymore unneccesary makeup starting from now

(no money also, so of cause cannot buy lah)

UNLESS, i do really need it(basic needs)

BUT, if i really do want something really really really extremely badly which is more of a WANT but not a need

i'll think about it ever so carefully before purchasing it

and i swear that for now im not going to purchase any high end brands of makeup simply because i cant afford it

2nd thing im going to swear upon

i Fatin Nur Tiara Binte Nordin

will try to control my temper and try to minimize my unruly attitude/character

i believe there are times when i do say things that i dont mean

but knowing me, i dont use my brain to think before i speak

i tend to spit whatever crap that comes to mind first, therefore i tend to hurt close ones

3rd thing im going to swear upon

i Fatin Nur Tiara Binte Nordin

will get back in shape

she's getting too big and she's feeling very unhealthy

drop the kilos fats, yes i will

but i wont be stick thin

(if not wont go with my name fats what)

next topic im going to touch on would be my previous entry

let's not talk about my existence at deli

i've been out of the picture for almost close to a year after getting a fulltime job at a logistics company

but after the retrenchment period i came back and hell am i ever as grateful to angie for allowing me to

and im going to make things clear and i say that i am not pissed for myself because of what you have or as you put it "your privilage"

well good for you, if you believe it is

but im pissed for my friends

maybe we shall not use the word pissed

maybe i shall say it leaves me in awe

seeing and knowing that most of them have worked longer

why aren't they given the same "privilage"

isnt that a tad bit unfair?

of course if people were to find out, they would question and ask why

wouldnt you agree?

knowing that 2 of them have worked their ass off and for them to have what they have

i shall say they've earned it

to whether i think you've earned it or not

i do not know, maybe SHE thinks that you have

and another topic that i am going to touch on

one my close friend was exposed

there are things that we can discuss and to keep amongst ourselves

but these things are not meant for the whole world to know

im going to say that people will be people

whatever or whoever they choose to be, they are still people with feelings

and that whatever is going on with them or whether that situation has passed

each individual should be respected

i too once questioned why

but then i figured, i shall accept all my friends for whatever and whoever they are

it's been like months, but why is it that you are still not over it?

and i still cant figure out why during the past few months you wanted to expose this close friend of mine

maybe you can tell me or explain to me why?

i doubt that he has done anything wrong to you

like i've said

there are things that only to be kept amongst us

not to tell it to whole freaking world about it

as much as i appreciate you apologising to me at my tagboard

but my dear, to find out you twittered about me starting a comotion and asking me to shut the fuck up

this is fats my dear

she never does shut the fuck up

no im not starting a comotion

as you've exposed my friend in your blog

shall i say that you've started the comotion first and that im only continuing or joining it

but this post shall end here

never am i going to touch on this topic again

because for me

it's done and over with