i was all psyched for the outing with the onsugar ladies

when BAM!
the color craft collection is only till the 2nd of july
and the ladies would be going on the 4th, but the date is yet to be confirmed
(could it get any worse?)
boohoo for me as the damn pay day wont be in by then
i'll probably only go after that

i'll be doing syimah's eye makeup this coming saturday
purple smokey eye aye? ill try to come up with something alright syimah
=)

i do know that i am becoming a big huge complain queen (even i agree "big huge" isnt the right word to use)
well let me ramble on and on and on
yes im complaining im not earning much
yes im complaining its getting damn freaking hard to find a motherfucking fulltime job
yes im complaining that i need to go get better education
yes im complaining about awhole load of other stuffs which im stupidly complaining about

naz was telling me how his friend or brother's friend who has a dip in mass com and he ended up working as a cleaner
hell yeah you read that right
CLEANER

so where does that leave us the "higher nitec" graduates?
working as what? nose pickers?
yeah i had a good laugh with naz about that
but seriously, when i come to think of it, where does that leave me?

fuck im jealous of friends who are still in school taking their dips
fuck im jealous of friends who are taking their degree
fuck im jealous of everyone who is having a higher education than me
need i say more?

and who the hell gave crudential or prudential my freaking hp number
no im sorry but im not interested in any insurance crap

as i was telling mom that i currently had 11 followers on onsugar
she laughed and said
"well are you making money out of it?"
you know what, i may not be making any money from it
atleast i get good comments and these are coming from people who dont know me
and just by getting those comments, it perks me up and it makes me feel good about myself

and i was hoping you would atleast say something good about the looks i did
but hell was i wrong about it

putting every single crappy thing aside

i think i do have a few things to look forward to
for one im gonna learn how to fish (with naz help of course)
two im going to go camera hunting with naz next friday (ceh ceh ceh, ada orang tu nak beli cam seh)
three im going to keep practicing on my makeup and get better on it
four ... well whatever good comes in my way

and in my next entry on onsugar
im going to try and replicate christina aguilera's look
(picture below)
ambitious? yeah i guess so
i need to go look for similar lashes or alternatives to it
and i need a blonde wig, if not pkai je mop



oh yeah
did i tell anyone that i dreamt deli was going to increase our pay to $5.20 per hour?
well ooops, dream only ah