and the 16's getting nearer

got myself a bikini

and thank god my jempot-jempot boobs can fit

phew

and was i jumping up and down when i put it on at home

gosh i swear my stomach's a killer

siap korang nanti kalau nampak perut aku

mintak ampun agknye

its weird how you've got that warm fuzzy feeling inside

but you're still afraid and you're making yourself look like a wuss

and no, im talking about myself

i had a chat with a friend

and thank you, really

i really appreciate it

its funny how i've always got something to say about everyone and everything else

but im idiot when it comes down to myself, making my own decisions

im scared yes

no lies there

am i still thinking about the old man

yes, he does pops up every once in a fucking while

how long has it been over

about 4-5 months

that's been quite sometime, yes it is

and am i still hurt

yes

its stupid really

but yeah, that's crazy

yes it is

and naz, its not that i dont want too

you're absolutely adorable

its that warm fuzzy feeling i keep getting whenever you call or text me

and like you said, i've got to be absolutely sure

and you're right

i definitely need the time cause i dont wish to jump into something im unsure about

and no im not faking about everything i said to you

its all true

damn even the old man doesnt treat me this nice

well maybe he did, and maybe i didnt notice it

but hell this feels way different

i'll try to make my decision

if i ever can that is

and thank you naz