fats feeling suffocated

due to the fact im wearing a high waisted belt which is gripping my babats and i can feel it folding when im sitting down

on top of that my damn nose's still blocked

and every 5 mins i'll be heading down to the toilet to blow my nose

crap

im wearing red

garang-garang red

gonna go slap on my red lipstick after work

then i can look more garang-garang

i should worn my red bra and underwear

and my makeup today, i do believe its too thick

there's way too much of everything

aku kan ni, nk jadi wayang pek gi

(no i dont believe what i typed is correct)

and im beginning to fall in love with M.A.C's pigments

im definitely going to order more from sha

probably get myself some old gold,copperized,softwash

my vanilla's running out

kecik's beginning to get my on my nerves

yes, its stupid of me to feel pissed off with a 9 year old

and some might say im being childish

but im going to ignore you kecik

cause you're talking way too much

and there are times i feel like giving you a tight slap across the face to shut you up

and great, even kecik knows im smoking

mom's patience is already running thin with me

and you had to blab to her that you saw my sticks in my bag

mind your own business kecik

kau baru mintak maaf dgn aku time raya

ni kau buat hal plak

dodol kau

and no, i wouldnt want kecik to think its alright to smoke

and no, i wouldnt want later on when she grows up she does stuffs she's not suppose to do

most importantly

i wouldn't want her to turn out like me and making the same mistakes i did

its scary how i look at kecik and to see how fast she's growing

she'll be 10 next year

and in a few years time

i'll probably hear her saying

hey i got myself a boyfriend

and let me say this, that will be one hell of a scary period

and i swear to god when that day comes

i'll be more protective

and you damn mother fucking bastards better not do anything silly

cause i'll rip your dicks out

dont believe me? let's pinky swear on that

yeah, i know, im nagging and thinking too much

fats you should start to shut it like right now

im looking forward to later

bye y'all