work was ok
didnt put my schedule up for next week
aku malas lah siallllll
aku nk SELAMAT HARI RAYA
nyehahahaha, im not really looking forward to hari raya this year
there's nothing to look forward to anyway
nenek and atok aren't around anymore, it wont be as fun as it used to be
btw, i miss you both, i really do
and dad's sick, mom already said we're not going to do alot of visiting on the 1st day
afraid dad might have his "im giddy and need to go hospital"
so will probably be at home most of the time, wont want dad to be moving around when he's sick



you say you feel like giving up because of my fucking attitude?
i've got a whole lot of reasons to do so than you do

im the one always having to apologise
im the one who always has to swallow my stupid pride and ego just to simply please you
im the one always being fucking stupid in helping you everytime you have your stupid crisis
but do you hear me complaining?
and you feel like giving up just because of my fucking stupid attitude?

and i NEVER in any way whatsoever dissed you or made you feel any lower
but have you ever stop to think about how i feel when you shoot your mouth off,
whenever you feel like you fucking want to
and even when you try to reassure me, nothing that comes out ever made sense
im made to feel ugly
expecially with you, never have you once made me feel beautiful
and im still here for you, by your fucking side and i dont know why
you feel like giving up? well so do i
you have had enough you say? well i had alot more

saye tau we dont always get to meet
and im sorry i dont act like how girlfriends should act
[and how the bloody hell should i know how we are suppose to act, neh-neh]
but you dont have to throw it all in my face
if you're not happy, then leave by all means

i love you dude
i want to change, im trying to
but i cant keep doing this over and over again
im bored of this and sometimes im bored of us